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| yeah... so it been awhile... oops!
so heres what ive been thinking lately, maybe some of you know exactly what im talking about, maybe im the only one, oh well either way here it is...
I dont doubt God can do anything. I know that if He wanted to He could move mountains, and heal all the people I know who are sick and hurting, and He could help me get good grades. I doubt if He will. I doubt if he will give me the desires of my heart, and then I think well He has to right, Hes the one that gave them to me, right? Will he work everything out so that I can be a teacher? so that I didnt just waste 2 and 1/2 years of my life here, only to be turned away because of one class? I know that God can help me and work everything out so that everything will be okay. BUT is my definition of okay the same as his? Is what I want, the same as what He has planned for me? AND if my plan isnt his, then what now? what about the money and the time, is that all a waste? was I supposed to even come here at all? Or was that just me following what I wanted and convinced myself that, thats what God wanted for me too? Honestly.... I dont know how everythings gonna work out. I dont know if Im gonna get into the education program here... I dont know if Ill have to leave, I dont know what God has planned for me. and thats hard... thats really hard, not knowing whats ahead, I know thats what faith is... trusting in Gods timing and not my own, but really its hard... sometimes its so hard to trust. I know that God is good, and His will is the best for me, but when its not clear sometimes, I have a hard time trusting in what I cant understand or see. BUT... I do know that God does have a plan for me and he knows exactly whats going on and none of this is a surprise to him, sometimes i wish he would inform me a little sooner... but I know hes taking care of everything... the problem is... I know this in my head... Ive learned it all since I was a baby, the problem is getting my heart to quiet and believe it too.
well... thats all i got... haha sorry its kinda depressing... any thoughts? hope youre all doing super!  | | |
| geez... its been months and months since ive had time for this... and not that i really do now, but whatever... anyway life for me right now is absolutely insane! in may i took a class at cedarville during may term, and because i decided it was a good idea to live at home and work WHILE commuting back anf forth everyday, may was pretty much just homework and driving back and forth from cedarville, and oh yeah i worked a little in there too. then in the beginning of june my little sister graduated from high school! yeah thats INSANE! so my whole family was in and it was lots of fun seein everybody well... minus the cousins, but its cool my uncle was retiring from the airforce band so i guess its forgivable. after my sisters graduation, i turned 21, yeah im pretty old. and since then pretty much all ive done is work. now... about work. its basically insanity and up until this week it was so stressful im lucky i didnt have a nervous breakdown or something... yeah who knew selling uniforms was so rough! well heres the short version on why its a mad house... my boss decided it was a good idea to pick up 3 very large schools in lexington, ky and because our store is in ohio, they dont usually make the 2 hr drive up for uniforms. so we went from last yr when we did bout 50 web orders over the whole summer to receiving about 50+ orders a day... yeah and we definately werent even close to prepared for that! because i am the only person to come back from last summer, i was given the job of training everyone. so i would teach them how to do different things and then let them go, while i went back and forth between answering all their questions, fixing all their mistakes, trying to keep all our weborders and shipping under control and waiting on all the customers during our june sale... yeah there were definately quite a few days i was very close to crying, or screaming... i feel bad though cause my poor boss-- he felt bad for me- watching me about have a meltdown everyday, would stay all night to figure out how to make things easier for me. but its all good i got a wk break last week, when the family (minus sarah) went to orlando, fl. it was lots of fun... we didnt really do much but it was great! well... thats bout it for now... i have a crazy week this week too, and my mom gave me the cold she had... wasnt that sweet! well hope everyones havin a great summer!  | | |
| oh my word its been forever.... today was such a great day! manda and i came down to cincy to go to the reds game with my dad... it wasnt too cold in the sun, but once we were in the shade it was freezing! but the reds won 11-9 so it was worth it!  and case was there so that was even better! i just love case... hes great!
and.... the BIG NEWS!!! we got a puppy today! we were just goin to look but it i really think it was such a God thing... my sister has wanted a dog for a really long time and since shes gonna be the only one here pretty soon... my parents decided that if they could find one that fit all their requirements they would get it... (small, doesnt bark too much, etc..) well we went to this little house tonight, and it was this adorable newly married couple. he is the youth pastor at this small baptist church, but their moving to ky cause hes goin to seminary, the same one jeremy (my churchs singles pastor) is goin too! how crazy is that!? yeah... so we all fell in love with her right away... and she said that she wanted us to take her cause chloe was her favorite, and she liked us!  so yeah we bought her tonight, but shes not here until after my parents get back from myrtle beach after easter sometime... so yeah in a few weeks she'll be here! and im really excited... ok and here she is....
** EDIT**
OH SORRY GUYS!! her name is CHLOE!
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| favorite song for the week....
"Little Moments"
by Brad Paisley
Well I'll never forget the first time that I heard
That pretty mouth say that dirty word
And I can't even remember now what she backed my truck into
But she covered her mouth and her face got red
And she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn't even act like I was mad
Yeah I live for little moments like that
Well that's just like last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector in the house was goin' off
And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not to let her see me laugh
Yeah I live for little moments like that
I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank god that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that
When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like an angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that
seriously... this is one of the best songs ever... guys it really is all about the little things, well i think it is... who knows bout every other girl, but yeah seriously, just to be loved like that... is every girls dream. dont worry im not gettin all nobody loves me on yall, I am very content with being loved by God and loving Him. Im just sayin is all, just puttin it out there.. ya know...
spring break was amazing! more details on that later... hope everyone had a great week!
heres a few spring break pictures to make ya real jealous! 
my sister and i on the beach for the sunset!
kisses!
the grandparents and me... they are the most precious, funniest people ever! they spoil me wayyy too much! and i love them with all my heart! theyre the bestest!
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| so... if you didnt know... last week was absolutely INSANE! seriously it was the most random week ever! which also means it was very stressful... but you know what... it was probably one of the best weeks ive had in a really long time! in all the craziness that went on, i havent been as happy or laughed as much in a really long time! i love my friend manda... she is one amazing girl, seriously! i heart her to death! we are pretty much retarded when we hang out which is practically everyday, but still! honestly though... i dont know what id do without her, shes pretty much become like another member of my family, well to me at least... we're just a couple of peculiar treasures! {with hair that looks like a flock of goats! right manda ;)} hehe anyway... we went down to cumberland, ky on tues to watch the baseball game because manda has friends there and cedarville was playin so ya know... well it was soo fun! absolutely crazy but too much fun. definately worth every second of it! and the rest of the week i was stressed out with schoolwork, but manda kept me laughin the whole way through it! (not intentionally though..) anyway... now im at home for spring break... well only till wednesday morning early... cause then im off to FLORIDA!!! yes... with my wonderful big sis, because manda couldnt go... (its ok babe i still love ya!) but yeah... sooo... excited bout that one... need to go shopping for some junk, but who knows when thatll happen... ohhh and the best part... were sooooo goin to a spring training game! yeah i know im pretty much the luckiest girl in the world! :0) im so excited! i heart the reds! (even though the traded case, dont worry im still very bitter about that!) oh yeah... i went into work yesterday cause my boss wanted to talk to me before he said whether or not he was gonna hire me on this summer, yeah i was totally freaked out that he was gonna say i was horrible and they didnt want me back... but he didnt! he just wanted to go over the new handbook with me, so that i could decide if i wanted to work there or not, once i knew all this new stuff. heck yes i did! and hes gonna have me help with organizing the store before he hires on new people... and im gonna help train them, which is totally exciting! i feel pretty cool, im not gonna lie! :0) yeah but thats just such an answer to prayer cause i really wanted to work there again! Gods so faithful, even if we dont deserve it and even in the little things... although i am kinda bummed... i havent seen my best friend in like 6 wks and i dont know if ill get to see him before i leave for florida, because he works like the craziest hours ever, its so insane hes gonna make himself so sick... but whatever... i still love him .. i guess... haha! anyway... im just kinda rambling now so i think thats enough for now... hope everyone has a GREAT week... and remember God's faithfulness, especially in the little things! love ya! | | |
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